I have my MRI Scan appointment today at 13.30 GMT. This MRI scan is for my Head and has been ordered by my GP due to my suffering from Tinnitus since the Chemotherapy drug, " Oxaliplatin" was administered back in September last year. I was eventually taken off the drug in December 2011 due to this condition . My hearing has been tested as "Normal" and the MRI is a further test to see if there is anything present that may be causing this condition.
The NHS has come through with a priority appointment as expected. Suddenly all the fears of "What if" come flooding back. My previous MRI scan revealed my bowel cancer had travelled to my lungs, so forgive me for being a bit pessimistic on my appointment today. I joined a very good web site some while ago, where you can discuss any form of fear or pessimism as a sufferer or carer http://www.journeythroughcancer.com/ please check it out its full of good advice or somewhere to connect with others going through the same or similar journeys. An extract from this weeks message. on the journey through cancer web site
"We must build dikes of courage to hold back the flood of fear"
Martin Luther King Jr,
Rick, the author of this site and a Colorectal Cancer Surgeon, tells of a case this week "of a woman diagnosed with cancer 3 years ago but never came to see the oncologist due to fear. Truth of the matter is, she was curable then, but now is not. Trouble is, this isn’t the first time I’ve seen this and probably won’t be the last. I’ve heard that just hearing the “c” word can create such paralytic fear."
“I have a highly developed sense of denial”
At
a recent survivorship celebration a gentleman shared that after 6 year of
survivorship, a counseling session brought out the revelation that his
radiation treatment markings (tattoos) were an all too constant reminder of his
cancer and its treatment. Conventional wisdom would tell us that this is a
classic coping mechanism, denial, getting in the way of somebody actually
addressing the issue. Others may offer that you’ll deal with your issue when
you are ready to deal with it, so denial gives you the space and time needed
until you are ready to cope.
Have
you noticed a time, even many years after the event when denial actually
protected you until you were ready to deal with a painful memory?
The NHS has come through with a priority appointment as expected. Suddenly all the fears of "What if" come flooding back. My previous MRI scan revealed my bowel cancer had travelled to my lungs, so forgive me for being a bit pessimistic on my appointment today. I joined a very good web site some while ago, where you can discuss any form of fear or pessimism as a sufferer or carer http://www.journeythroughcancer.com/ please check it out its full of good advice or somewhere to connect with others going through the same or similar journeys. An extract from this weeks message. on the journey through cancer web site
"We must build dikes of courage to hold back the flood of fear"
Martin Luther King Jr,
Rick, the author of this site and a Colorectal Cancer Surgeon, tells of a case this week "of a woman diagnosed with cancer 3 years ago but never came to see the oncologist due to fear. Truth of the matter is, she was curable then, but now is not. Trouble is, this isn’t the first time I’ve seen this and probably won’t be the last. I’ve heard that just hearing the “c” word can create such paralytic fear."
“I have a highly developed sense of denial”
Gwinneth Paltrow
My message is always the same, Bowel Cancer is curable if caught early enough. Bowel Cancer claims thousands of lives needlessly every year. Visit the Bowel Cancer UK website for some great information.
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